people say that all people born to be a good person.. so all people are kind at the first time.. and what make some people become bad person is their environtment~.. is this true?
hem... sometimes.. i feel like i'm acting to be a kind person... in some conditions.. i have a bad thought in my mind.. about someone or something.. and i also imagine i do something else in certain condition.. a bad thing.... do this mean i also have hum.. evil side inside of me...? if i do something that i don't want to do... i mean.. i do something good rather than do something bad... but in my mind i rather doing the bad one.. do it means i am a bad person... originally? but i don't want people think that i'm such a bad person... so.. i just pretending am i?? @_@...
or maybe... people born with a bad side also.. and we have to control that bad side to be a good person?? ergh..

and today.. i feel cruel.. as u can read in my previous posts.. i dislike someone.. and i did something bad to him.. '_' gak jahat2 banget sih.. cman nyuek2in dikit... dan lain lain ^^;
i forgot that he's only a human.. he can makes some mistakes.. and.. i broke the promise that i made.. that i'll never left him.. and always become his bestfriend... but because he did something bad.. i erased all good things about him... '_'..
and then.. something happened and make me realize how cruel i am.. did such a bad thing.. >___<.. usually.. although i hate someone i never do something bad cos' i remember about her good deeds.. and my hatred didn't last long.. just for a few days ^^;; but not this one... huuu... T_T... feeling bad about myself....

jadi apa sebenarnya kebaikan dan apa sebenarnya kejahatan.. =_=;

yesterday,i watched "exorcist the begining".. =D it's not very scary..~ ehuheue.. but the ac temp. in the cinema was cooler than usual.. maybe.. to make the film scarier heuhe?? the person who asked me to watch this film said that he asked me cos' i'm a girl and it would be fun to see me scared -_-~.. sialan..!!... hihi.. but i think.. he's a lil bit afraid also... =D.. don't want to mention his name.. but he sat in my right side yesterday... XP
the funiest scene in the film is when the lucifer (he is inside the woman main character, that has a little affair with the pastor.. ^^;) says "do u want to fu** me?" heuhue -_-;;; with man voices... hiiy... huehue...see the film and u'll know why that's so funny~
btw.. i saw the film in citos cinema.. huehe.. entah knapa agak2 terkenang sesuatu gitu heuhue~ la la la~ bodo ah~
hum.. that's all.. i have to eat..~

hihi.. my mom (actually my dad who paid for them)bought me a pair of shoes.. , parfume..=D and.. many cakes + candies hihi..
hoe.. guess that's all i can tell u~
hem.. lil bit disapointed about sumthing.. but that's okay =D

well since i have nothing to do.. do some quizes is nice then.. =D.. hihi these are some popular quizes from quizila...


You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.


What feeling do you represent?
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^_^~ huehuehue.. kindness hah? really...????


kagome


!!!!!!!!!!!!!Which inuyasha character are you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ohoo.. i'm kagome.. ^_^? hihi.. maybe.. in anger and both of us like to yell and punch annoying people la la la~ also not very feminin.~

well this is lil bit interesting.. hihi~


He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that
scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he
will always love you from the bottom of his
heart! And if your friends start telling you
hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in
their faces. You are the key to unlock that
heart of his^^.


What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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-amazed ^o^- hem.. my comment about this result.. =D.. i already quess it.. and it's turn to be right ^^~

ui~ i posted many times in the past 3 days~ hihi..
hum.. hoobastank's live performance is not very good -_-~ the vocalist's voice is like a frog's voice.. fiuuh...~ felling lucky i didn't come to their concert in jakarta.. uuh.. about concert.. i hope MUSE or maroon5 will come to jakarta.. =D i absolutely'll come..
the one and only concert i've attended is.. westlife concert wakakaka...~ i used to like them (well boy band fever.. it's over now heuhue).. i was about 2 metre from them hihi.. ^_^~ the concert started in evening but i came in 11 am.. (haha i'm such a westlife freak back then)~.. hihi..
na na na~ my mom and dad'll be arrived at 7pm~ la la la~ what stuff did the buy me? or.. they bougth nothing~ uuuh.. i heard my mom bougth a shoes for my youngest sis.. '_'~ uh.. awas klo gak bliin gw apa2 *iri mode on*.. at least some candies.. (my dad usually buy me candies when he's going to pekanbaru, a lot of imported stuff at there)..
hoo.. and about ielts.. uh i'm so happy dika pass it.. but T_T some other friends don't pass it.. uhuks huks.. well there's still another chance.. good luck fellows..~
oh yeah i forgot to tell you about my high school year book.. it's well designed but.. feel nothing personal about it (hs year book is supposed to be a personal book full of memories about my friends.. but .. T_T).. my class's pages is like some pages from other book that stick into it.. humps.. feel like an outsider.. and what make it worse is... my pic is not very good huuuuuuuuh....!!! and also my friend's pic.. and the arranged it in the wrong way.. our pics are not put based on student number so.. the story that we made from that pics totally missing.. heks.. uuh so saaad!!.. and the cover is very "gak jelas gak meaning"... or i just to stupid to understand what's the relationship about my hs and a green manequin with "bulu2" in her neck.. even it's in green.. i don't like it at all..~ for those person who made it.. i'm sorry about my words =D~

ps: i have a plan tonight =D.. hope that nothing will ruin it.. hihi..~

erg..my cough is getting worse.. uhuk huk huk huk.. there isn't any medicine -_-;; my mom is in pekanbaru.. having a *dunno for how many times* honeymoon with my dad (huks.. actually my dad have a job and my mom go there to accompanied him... and she said she'll buy me something for me.. but there nothing interesting at there... *uh alasan*).. huuu..kinda miss her.. *walo kalo ada yah berantem melulu* if she's here she is most probably yelling at me tell me to go to bed to take a rest.. but she's not here.. huuuh... miss my dad also...
8 months again huh.. i am sooo exited about going to ausie.. but T_T feeling sad and affraid in the other hand huuu.. i'll lose many things..
heks. btw.. my youngest sis is really annoying humph.. dasar penakut bobo sendiri aja gak beraniiiiii! >_<.. yeah... untung kakamu ini baikk...

erg.. i already know my result.. i got 7 for ielts.. (the requirement is 6.5).. ^_^ fiuuuh... but.. one of my friend didn't pass it and there are some of them who didn't take the result yet.. so i'm still wondering... >_< uuh...

yap..got a reason to dislike that person.. ^_^;.. search for it in fact~ usually dika blame me if i said 'dikaaa.. sbel ah.. ilpil~".. and now.. she's in my side.. hem.. it's bad to fell this is right just because someone agree with me.. hem.. one of my friend said that sometimes it's ok to be a bad person heh.. katanya biar gak diinjek2...and i guess i become one...from now on.. i'll stay away from that person...
i'll take the ielts score this evening.. uuuh.. i'll tell u latter.. >_< uuh doki doki..

i'm just an ordinary people, am i?(-_-).. so it's normal if i dislike someone...
but i rarely feel this way to others (esp. with my friends)...hem.. i can count it.. only twice in my smp...~ and zero in sma..~ (hem.. or maybe i don't remember ^^?) huu... make me feel lil bit cruel and not very comfortable.. actually, i don't have any good reason to ignored him, but i really want to do that.. i did it few times btw.. but feeling quilty in the end.. ~_~... argh.. whatever!!

btw.. a good news for today.. =D i have no fear of swimming in the deeper side of my 'kos' swimming pool right now~ hihihi.. when i tried to reach the bottom.. i could do it..! (tp jijit ^^; dan yang kliatan palanya doang) and it means... 'dika jeleeeek loe gak bisa nakut2in gw lagi'~ hum.. but there wasn't a great view clouds in the sky~ .. what i like about swimming is.. it makes me feel hem.. peacefull.. esp. when i see the clouds.. dgn berenang dgn gaya punggung~ (hem.. tergangu sih dgn teror si dika... -_-;)..

ergh...that's for today~ wish me luck for friday.. the ielts score'll out.. la la la~

hyaa.. ^_^~ i downloaded all fullmetal alchemist's ost.. hihi.. i already know the web for quite a long time.. but.. -_-;.. i use dial up in my home.. and the file sizes are big..~
i also downloaded naruto and furuba ost =D... there's 'teru teru momiji' (from furuba.. uuuw.. momiji's voice is very cute...) in >> here <<.. and the weird drum voices from the series... gyaa..
i only had the opening and ending song at first.. and now i have it all ^_______^
usually the internet connection in my campus is slow... but not today... *happy*
erg.. the layout is not very good.. have to fix it...

huum... =D finally... i've changed the layout.. huu... but.. not satisfied yet..
..I'll make this better.. hihihi..
i did it in just a few hours btw.. ^_^~ including the weird pic above. (that pic. refer to me.. hihihi~)..

hem..erg.. there's something that bothering me... maybe I've said wrong words few months ago.. -_-;; sigh...and i don't want to take it back also.. cos' that's what i really feel.. T_T i hope that everything will be normal again...

i want to say something.. ^^.. do not keep ur feeling inside.. say it.. before it's too late..~ (ergh.. sendirinya padahal =D...)

huum.. i really want to update the layout.. and i want to do it.. myself.. =D
T_T huu.. bored with this template~ hem.. but i like the colour combination... i searched for skins in blogskins.com.. hem.. hueh.. some of them are good and.. maybe i can use it but.. -_- i don't want to put the maker name in the bottom of my blog..~ or somewhere else.. but feeling qulity if I don't... so... i decided too...!!! START.. (i only think about it and never do it) making the layout hueheu... maybe just a simple css and stuff.. want to put my pics also xixixi..
ho.. maybe i'll change the lang. into english... for practice >_<~..
although my english is not perfect.. i'm sure (and hope =D) u can understand....hu.. wut else?

want to tell u a story.. dika almost killed me '__'.. (she said she have no ittention but... >_<~).. i was swimming with her.. and.. the swimming pool have different depth.. usually.. i only swim in the 1m (maybe i'm not sure) depth one.. but.. dika asked me to go the deeper side (forced me in fact).. and.. i said 'dika.. kalo gw dah sampe sana pegangin yah'.. and she said 'iyaaa'.. plus other words to convinced me...but she didn't do it.. she LEFT me.. ALONE in the deep side T_T huuuuu.... i was almost drowned when she pulled my haiiiiiiiiiir >_<.. to saved me...
huuf.. after that i made a promise not to swim in that side again... even swimming with dika..
but i did both of them again.. >_<
i dunno.. instead of feeling guilty dika seems to be happy about that accident heuheu.. she 'proudly' admit it.. if i told it to others.. humph.. and she said.. 'i'll do it again!'
hem. . now.. i had a little fears when swimming with her.. she seems like an alligator.. or.. bear.. that tried to kill me.. and she pulled me in to deep side couple of times -__-;;;.. i always screaming... and i think my voice heard all over the building =__=.. cos' i was so scared...
huu… but.. ^^; it’s fun also…~

heks.. I have to go to a meeting.. bye~ (if I late I have to pay 1000/5 minutes).. gyaa..~

p.s: congrats for ummay!!! xixixi =D glad to hear the news~

'_' bom.. knapa ada orang yang begitu tega.. heran? dia nonton tv gak yah..
dia liat gak sih korban2nya..orang sebangsa ma dia (well.. kalo bener2 orang indonesia yang nge bom..i could be anyone.. from anywhere.. with.. different purposes)..
tp siapapun dia.. miris gak sih liat hal itu.. mereka gak tau apa2 gitu loh..bahkan.. anak umur 5 tahun harus dirawat di icu dan ibunya wafat T_T
polisi jadi kaya orang bodoh.. 20 menit abis menyatakan indonesia aman! duaaaaaaaar!ada yang colek2 di tengah rapat 'pak pak... itu kedubes australia di bom' (yah kira2 bgitu ngomongnya)sang kaporli speechless beberapa saat.. '_'
indo punya skolah intelejen kan..? trus.. -_-.. bisa kecolongan gini...
yah.. saya emang bukan orang yang memiliki keperdulian sosial yang tingi2 amat..tpi kejadian ini cukup bikin kepikiran -_-;..dah ah.. jangan dihayati...

hari ini... maen drama.. jadi bapak2 galak.. kocak jadinya..diketawain maba maba hihihii.. wah. image gw jadi aneh la la la~yang jadi anak gw ^^; keceplosan manggil gw mama =) it means... gw masi kaya cewe doong =)

bsok.. tes ielts.. diramalkan akan mencapai skor 7.0 -_- sama si ian.. tpnya..bisa gak yaaaaaaah... huu.. mudah2an gak gugup..dan gw bisa menebak salah satu speaking testnya ialaaaaaaaaaaah.. ditanyain ttg bom '_'~

hem.. there's sumthin else in my mind.. tp yang ini di skip aja..bukan waktu yang tepat sih..
tp..i can't stop thinking about this thing..is this real? -_- i dunno..
a great expectation~ it won't become a reality..but still...
T_T... oooh~ hopes.. and fears..